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Teeeeerrible Moooooood
Teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrible MoooooOoOOOoOOoOood

It's nice to know that you have a unique point of view.
It's not nice when you regularly end up feeling like, becuase of that uniqueness, you don't actually have any peers. No fault of theirs. No fault of yours. Eventually "different people" becomes "impossibly different" and then the bitterness. and then the dislike that's there more often than not. The eye rolling. The feeling that it's all a bunch of bullshit anyway. The "how did I ever"s and the "why didn't I see"s.

I think we all sort of need that level of banality to push against. We need the bad so the good means something. And we need to continually be misunderstood and taken for granted so that we'll actually *get it* when someone says "I know" and they mean it.

I've been in my own head a lot lately and haven't really been talking about it. Which is fine. I like having thoughts that are just mine. But the real reason I haven't really been talking is becuase I'm not sure I have the vocabulary for what I want to say and I don't want to end up spewing bullshit platitudes with heavy doses of elizabethan wank and pseuo-words. Mute is better. Mute works.

I've been reading Nicole Blackman and I shouldn't.
It's funny to me that people think Snoop Dogg and Missy Elliot invented "izzle" talk.
It's funnier that someone can get snobby about something like The Strokes or one of these ineffectual post-emo whiner-pop bands with the deep lyrics and the bass-free voices and the jangle of guitar playing learned by rote from the top 40 stations of the late 80s. These little kids with all their deep deep shit and their po-mo, unearned cynicism.

Rhapsody recommends Basement Jaxx if you're listening to Thomas Dolby.
it recommends Sting if you're listening to Oingo Boingo
it recommends Bad Religion if you're listening to DK
... and Sheila E if you're listening to Parliament.



This song makes me tear up.

rip up or cry... you decide.

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uncletravelling
Aug. 12th, 2005 02:17 pm (UTC)
Wow -- according to Rhapsody, I'm in trouble -- though, I always thought that Sheila E looked hot playing the bongos.

"But the real reason I haven't really been talking is becuase I'm not sure I have the vocabulary for what I want to say and I don't want to end up spewing bullshit platitudes with heavy doses of elizabethan wank and pseuo-words."

-- yep, that's where I've been the last year - all I can do is read books that put it the way that I wish that I could and then recommend them to others - it feels pathetic, but it's all I can do -- then I have to deal with the problem of others not getting it the way that I do, have a dialogue about it and wind up back at square one -- ugh.

strength to the hubby.
maddening
Aug. 12th, 2005 02:52 pm (UTC)
I mean.. I *get* the Shela E / Parliament funk connection... but given that the other suggestions were Ohio Players, Earth Wind and Fire, Sly and the Family Stone, Shelia was just a little out of place.

Pants are the enemy in my husband's rehabilitation. He's back at work this week and it's invariably the pants and their nasty habit of hitting right across the incision that are laying him low.
We shall PREVAIL over PANTS.
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