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Mar. 6th, 2007

A few months ago, around christmas or new year's I got into a conversation with a friend of mine about religion. I was pretty shocked that he had just as much interest in the topic as I did and was really open minded and still searching and learning. Post heart attack and in his mid-to-late-40s he was still trying to figure out how he felt, what he believed, and how much of what to take and what to leave. So that made me feel a little better about my extended 1/4 life crisis of faith or the lack thereof.

He gave me a book he'd just read called Many Lives, Many Masters. It's by a psychiatrist who came to believe in and actively promote the concept of past life regression, reincarnation, and how important the acceptance of reincarnation is in curing people of phobias and chronic depression. What he doesn't blatantly say is that he really stopped believing in medical therapy for anything other than physiologically explained mental illnesses (and he didn't feel that anxiety and depression had physiological roots).

The book is small, circular, and sort of stretches my open mindedness here and there. But it's an interesting perspective that I'm happy Oscar shared with me because I would not have sought it out on my own. Something in the book caught me and started me thinking. The author said that the accumulated anxiety of all of these lessons we've never learned would eventually (according to the "Master spirits" that spoke through this particular patient) lead to the eventual destruction of man. And that this anxiety was very well exhibited through teenagers, most of whom believe they would not live beyond their 20s. He described this as a thoroughly modern phenomenon.

When I was a kid I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would die in a nuclear explosion. My only hope was that I was close enough to the blast that I died instantly instead of one of the unlucky bastards outside of the blast wave who drop off slowly from the poison of radiation. I knew that. Like... no doubt in my mind. The nuclear climate of the '80s, the military town, and knowing how many bases were around us all made it obvious to me. And when I crept out of the teens and into the 20s and kept living and didn't die I felt vaguely lost and confused by the whole thing. What the hell am I supposed to do now? My destiny was to die in a mushroom cloud just like Tears for Fears said I would.

I wonder if that was a universal thing for people in my age group (just after Gen X, just before Gen (wh)Y) or if I was just a weirdo cerebral kid who thought about things like that. But also - 5 years ago I couldn't picture myself at 30. And right now, I can't picture myself at 40. Is it really a symptom of our anxiety and cumulative impending doom or is it just our lack of foresight and the difficulty we have in picturing our place in the world?

I don't know how I feel about the whole past life thing. This book certainly didn't convince me of anything. But I also don't completely discount it (or anything else).

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punkalicia
Mar. 6th, 2007 10:02 pm (UTC)
well, for me...it's big trucks on fwy's. convinced i'm going out in a blaze of metal and diesel fuel.

i will admit to rolling every so often and going 'huh, 30? when did THAT happen', b/c it just never occurred to me that, i dunno, that i was going to grow old. and yeah, i just can't imagine being *40*. like, how on earth will it be possible?


ttocsland
Mar. 7th, 2007 12:29 am (UTC)
With the help of modern medical technologies - that's how!!!!

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