As you can probably see from the last several entries, I really don't have much to say. But i'm just a freak.. I Have to keep talking.
At one point in time this was because there were people in the world out there who would have freaked out had I not kept it up. If I were to drop out for a day it would be noticed and worried over.
Now, that's not really the case.
It's just a force of habit now.
I have a strange relationship with attention. It always seems I get it when I don't want it and usually from the people that it's rather frightening or tedious to have it from. That isn't *always*... just seems to be the general way of things.
I'm tired of being in these dimensions only.
But I know flesh and blood lets me down just as much.
And it makes sense to *me* to say that... and I mean it for me.
So it makes sense.
and it's probably better like this... flat and vaporous.
::nods::
At one point in time this was because there were people in the world out there who would have freaked out had I not kept it up. If I were to drop out for a day it would be noticed and worried over.
Now, that's not really the case.
It's just a force of habit now.
I have a strange relationship with attention. It always seems I get it when I don't want it and usually from the people that it's rather frightening or tedious to have it from. That isn't *always*... just seems to be the general way of things.
I'm tired of being in these dimensions only.
But I know flesh and blood lets me down just as much.
And it makes sense to *me* to say that... and I mean it for me.
So it makes sense.
and it's probably better like this... flat and vaporous.
::nods::
- Current Mood:
restless
Comments
I am sure you had your reasons for dropping me from your friends list. I cannot really blame you. I intruded where I did not belong, and pointed my finger, and I really apologize to you for all that.
I really do like reading what you have to say. Your argument for the legalization of marijuana was priceless... I was extremely impressed.
It would be nice to hear from you soon.
David
It's become a popularity contest. My list wasn't accurately reflecting who I actually read. And I don't make a lot of friends only entries anyway (and the ones I do are parsed down to only allow a few people).
I also took off Chris yesterday, not because there was anything wrong with him, but because I honestly found myself scrolling past his journal to get to others because, well, It's not really something that interests me.
I really didn't think it would be a problem removing you, as you don't post all that often. I will check in with your journal often, but I didn't like the friends list becoming this... public declaration of who you liked. Becuase it just isn't so. There are many people I *don't* have on my friends list that I read all the time.
And there are some that are there that I really should take off... but I'll get to it.
I don't care about that little tiff with the gender bashing thing... though I find it odd that now you're saying you were pointing the finger when then you said that you absolutely were not...
I didn't like your attitude about it, but then again, I didn't really *dislike* it either.
And that argument for marijuana legalization? I said that it was from my friend Simon Larsen... it was his argument.. I was merely quoting.
You have plenty of friends on that list, kiddo... a lot of them probably relate to you a hell of a lot better than I do. Besides.. hehe... I really don't think that you jive with my head space too much. ::nods::
So when I say it was nothing personal... it wasn't... it had to do with the people, sure... but it wasn't meant as a slam or an affront.