Not that I'm annoyed.
I know I'll have a job very very soon.
That's very good.
It's just... I need to know I can actually DO the job, and despite the reassurances of myriad people... that's just not something I know.
And I'm so grateful for the people who have put up with my sighning and long pauses and refusal to just be fucking chipper. Well, there's only one of you on here that's done that... but I'm just saying it for all the flesh people too.
It will work out. I really just have to keep telling myself that.
I'll be a total basket case for about a month.. but I'll be a *busy* basketcase and that's really what it's all about, ya know.
I'll also be a basketcase that can pay back the mom, rebuild the bank account and finally, maybe, get another car.. heheh.. not in a month... but you know what I mean.
I need to make a list of the things I want to do.
So that I don't veer from my path (by too much)
I am not a nice person.
I know this about me.
And in my best stuart smalley.... that's... okay.