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my boss called all the floor people into the break room.
Grabbed me too.
I never get dragged to these meetings.
he had the tv on just in time to watch the buildings collapse.
We had about two minutes of dead silence.
Then we were all dismissed... almost everyone gossiping.
I wanted to go outside.
I headed out and realized the flag was too high.
As I was unravelling the rope, going to lower it down... Pat came out apparently headed toward the same task. He was so upset. He was shocked that someone else thought to take the flag to half mast.

I'm upset.
heh.
I sort of expected reports and smoke in the sky from right over the highway.
I really did expect massive damage around my area. I expected it to just keep going.
And there's nothing to keep it from continuing, really.
So I'm a lil upset.

I'm not going to get horribly sentimental here. Everyone else I know has already done that. But I will say that it really did give me pause.

Maybe that makes me trite and "normal"
maybe that means I'm somehow boring and common.
And maybe, because I have nothing heartbreaking or touching or wry to say about this, I'm just another fucking person. eh?

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mjfgates
Sep. 11th, 2001 03:28 pm (UTC)
What, you hadn't noticed that?
Yeah, you're a person.
maddening
Sep. 11th, 2001 03:57 pm (UTC)
Re: What, you hadn't noticed that?
Oh but it's bad evil and just UN FUCKING COOL to be a person.
You have to be cold and standoffish and unfeeling and steely eyed in the face of all the things that touch the puny and weak hearts of all of us PEOPLE out here.

I'm being a lil bitchy. Because people try too gaddamned hard to play up how 'hard' they are.
punkalicia
Sep. 11th, 2001 03:59 pm (UTC)
Re: What, you hadn't noticed that?
and i feel so much pity for anyone feels nothing about this.

you have to wonder if they are even alive in there.
mjfgates
Sep. 11th, 2001 04:29 pm (UTC)
Re: What, you hadn't noticed that?
huh. I'm not sure who you mean. Me, I've spent the day sort of clinging to Wife, and going and finding out that the blood bank has a four-hour wait to give blood (guess I'm not the only eligible person in the world), and now... I dunno what I'm doing now. Being scared and angry, I guess.
maddening
Sep. 11th, 2001 07:12 pm (UTC)
Re: What, you hadn't noticed that?
no one you know.
Just someone who is too intelligent to be that fucking stupid... and yet.. there is it.
Bragging about being completely untouched by this all.
beh.
I worked all day.
I stared off into space a lot.
I got into conversations with customers about the latest reports and the people behind them in line didn't mind. They joined in.
It's the first time I've ever felt like my city is a community as well.
Just typical that it took the fear of having flaming wreckage rain down from above onto our massive military complexes (and all the elementary schools that tend to be so close to them) for people to not be self centered pricks.

bleh.
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