April 30th, 2001


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I keep looking at all of my friends' friends. And I really really really dig some of these people. But I feel... strange. I feel like I can't just waltz up and add them and start talking to them because they aren't my people, they are the people on my friends lists' people. And it would be... what? rude? to just jump in and stake a claim too.
SO uh I just bookmark them and read them everytime they update and keep myself from commenting. And I feel really really guilty about this. What the FUCK is wrong with me? BUT I DO. I feel guilty about this. I feel like.. I didn't do the work to find them so, ya know, I shouldn't get to reap the benefits of reading them.
I'm being so insanely inarticulate at the moment.
I should go have some vodka.
SO yeah.. if you are ever going through your friends' friends lists, and happen to bump into this, please feel free to write me or scream or call me an idiot. I *love* feedback and just don't get enough.
And I'll continue admiring all of your words and just keeping it to myself :::shrug:::
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why do I get these things?

They just annoy me with their uh... accuracy...

Planning is not generally a strong point of yours, Holly, but sometimes, it
is painfully necessary. It may be that you are more comfortable with just throwing
caution to the wind, letting fate lead the way, and keeping good luck as your
backup. This plan works for the most part, but realize that in some cases,
a degree of rational thinking and organization is essential to get the job
done right.

That picture?

That's not me.
I know... looks *just* like me, but it's not.
That's Tom.
It's Tom's birthday.
So Tom's picture is on the LJ.
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