May 14th, 2001


The dream bean.

my eyes are burning.
my teeth alternately clench...cause my jaw to ache or open a bit, allowing the playing space for a grin and the tip of my tongue between my teeth. And the sore eyes upturn and I can imagine that they twinkle.
I'm looking for a word that means what I feel... and it's not there.
Sunk into my pillows.
I got that feeling in my chest.
And I already knew and I knew and I know and my lip got bit but I knew and I held my breath and counted off seconds and balled my hands into fists to stop the shakies and I know and I knew and I beat myself up for being such a coward because, fuck it.. I KNEW.

And I'm not running and I want to run from my not running.
Feet of lead, I have.
confused confused confused.

I hate that word.

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Rhett: How're you?
Me : eh, I'm alright
Me : it's been a weirdly emotional today
Rhett: Yeah, licking electrical sockets does that
  • Current Music
    Linkin park - Points of Authority

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I kinda want to just post a lot of ani difranco lyrics.
and I kinda want to tell some people just what I think of them.
And I really want to be capable of lucidity and wit.
But I'd really rather just shut up