June 1st, 2001


Guide to Singing the Blues

Thinking of singing the Blues? These are the rules:

1. Most Blues begin, "Woke up this morning..."

2. "I got a good woman" is a bad way to begin the Blues, 'less you stick
something nasty in the next line like, "I got a good woman, with the
face in town."

3. The Blues is simple. After you get the first line right, repeat
it. Then find something that rhymes...sort of: "Got a good woman with the

meanest face in town. Yes, I got a good woman with the meanest face in
Got teeth like Margaret Thatcher, and she weigh 500 pound."

4. The Blues is not about choice. You stuck in a ditch, you stuck in a
ditch--ain't no way out.

5. Blues cars: Chevys, Fords, Cadillacs and broken-down trucks. Blues
travel in Volvos, BMWs, or Sport Utility Vehicles. Most Blues
is a Greyhound bus or a southbound train. Jet aircraft an'
motor pools ain't even in the runnin'. Walkin' plays a major part in the

blues lifestyle. So does fixin' to die.

6. Teenagers can't sing the Blues. They ain't fixin' to die yet.
Adults sing the Blues. In Blues, "adulthood" means being old enough to
the electric chair if you shoot a man in Memphis.

7. Blues can take place in New York City, but not in Hawaii or any
place in Canada. Hard times in Minneapolis or Seattle is probably just
clinical depression. Chicago, St. Louis, and Kansas City are still the
places to have the Blues. You cannot have the blues in any place that
get rain.

8. A man with male pattern baldness ain't the blues. A woman with male
pattern baldness is. Breaking your leg cause you skiing is not the blues.

Breaking your leg 'cause a alligator be chompin' on it is.

9. You can't have no Blues in a office or a shopping mall. The
lighting is wrong. Go outside to the parking lot or sit by the dumpster.

10. Good places for the Blues: a. highway b. jailhouse c. empty bed d.
of a whiskey glass.
Bad places: a. Dillard's b. gallery openings c. Ivy League institutions
golf courses

11. No one will believe it's the Blues if you wear a suit, 'less you
happen to be a old ethnic person, and you sleep in it.

12. Do you have the right to sing the Blues? Yes, if: a. you older
than dirt b. you blind c. you shot a man in Memphis d. you can't be

No, if: a. you have all your teeth b. you were once blind but now can see
the man in Memphis lived d. you have a 401K or trust fund

13. Blues is not a matter of color. It's a matter of bad luck. Tiger
Woods cannot sing the blues. Sonny Liston could. Ugly white people also
got a
leg up on the blues.

14. If you ask for water and your darlin' give you gasoline, it's the
Blues. Other acceptable Blues beverages are: a. cheap wine b. whiskey or

bourbon c. muddy water d. nasty black coffee

The following are NOT Blues beverages: a. Perrier b. Chardonnay c.
Snapple d.
Slim Fast

15. If death occurs in a cheap motel or a shotgun shack, it's a Blues
Stabbed in the back by a jealous lover is another Blues way to die. So is
electric chair, substance abuse, and dying lonely on a broken-down cot.
can't have a Blues death if you die during a tennis match or getting

16. Some Blues names for women: a. Sadie b. Big Mama c. Bessie d. Fat

17. Some Blues names for men: a. Joe b. Willie c. Little Willie d. Big

18. Persons with names like Michelle, Amber, Debbie, and Heather can't
the Blues no matter how many men they shoot in Memphis.

19. Make your own Blues name Starter Kit: a. name of physical
infirmity (Blind, Cripple, Lame, etc.) b. first name (see above) plus
name of
fruit (Lemon, Lime, Kiwi,etc.) c. last name of President (Jefferson,
Fillmore, etc.) For example, Blind Lime Jefferson, Jakeleg Lemon Johnson
Cripple Kiwi Fillmore, etc. (Well,maybe not "Kiwi.")

20. I don't care how tragic your life: if you own a computer, you
cannot sing the blues.

Woke up dis mornin.....

To my mom.
At ten o'clock.
Telling me that Wendy called and was just SHOCKED that I hadn't sent Stephen my resume yet.
I found out about the job late in the day Wednesday. I spent a fair chunk of Thursday tweaking, formatting, and rewriting bits of the resume and trying to figure out just how to word the attendant letter.
I had every intention of sending it today anyway.
Wendy was just SHOCKED that I hadn't sent it yet. She stressed that this was a very good opportunity and, furthermore, asked if I actually really wanted a job in the first place.
This coming from the sister who I had to ask 8 different times over the span of a MONTH to give me a quick sketch of a resume format. This coming from the sister who I asked 4 times to ask her boss what school in the area he would reccomend for a certified medical coding program (given that he runs a doctor's office, is a certified nurse and certified medical coder himself, as well as an actual *friend* of Wendy's. She talks to him many times throughout the day. I didn't think it would be a big deal.), but she never actually got around to that and I gave up.
This is the same sister who gave mother's day card to my mother *yesterday* and who remembered my birthday somehwere in the middle of january this year.
Procrastinating on the smallest of things. Wildly slow on the most important. She puts off everything... absolutely everything...
And she's having a little fit because I wasn't fucking PROMPT enough for her?

Not that big of a deal, I know.
But I has only been asleep since about 7:30, woke up with a headache and I'm kind of cranky when I wake up anyway.
It's all fixed now.
Resume sent. Talked to my brother.
He'll walk it down there. That'll be fine.

It never was a big deal. But I raged around for the first couple hours I was awake. Just blind angry. Slamming things around, breaking things, spilling things.. because when you're in that pissed off and rough mode, you just fuck *everything* up, so it just adds to the anger.
I"M calmer now.
Feel like a total idiot whenever I do that.
I'm certainly my father's daughter.
Not a happy thought.

I was supposed to hang with Dan today.
Dunno if I can do that, though.
He told me yesterday that he's in love with me.
And I told him that that's the worst possible thing he ever could have said to me.

And, him not understanding, I know it would just be... awkward and hard to be around him.

What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with MEN?
was that supposed to sweep me off my feet and I just... didn't read the stage directions right?


In the last couple weeks, things have been said and noticed that really made me start think that I might just have ADD.
Well, this isn't making me think otherwise.

(no subject)

Standing in the kitchen
Silver, brown and blonde
Never understood that whole thing
Just now it's starting
We talk about music.
We talk about her husband
My brother
But more about the father
Mom mostly just listens
He's outside doing recon
And smoking cheap menthols
Great white hunter
Gossiping in the garage
Her eyes tear up
The perfection she needed
The disappointment she feared
Her determination
His ransacking of her room
her flight
Freedom took 20 years
But there's still bars over her eyes
I can sympathize
wanting to hug her
up until she says I had it easy
Shutting down
that's me
she ran
I stayed
46, 69, 77
Mom says "Yeah, well, we survived."
in tones more suited to death
And I even believe her