June 26th, 2001


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I'm being bombarded with the IM messages from the guys.
One from someone trying to make me jealous by sleeping with Neil Diamond's corpse (nevermind that he's still alive), another telling me that women are insane because of the insanity chemicals released by tampons and the third bouncing up and down asking if he can call me.

And I think I'm just posting this because I don't want to look at my journal in the morning and see a post about menstruation being the last thing I had to say today.
Not that there's anything wrong with it... just .. yeah ... not what I want to wake up to, really.
I've got all these goals for tomorrow.
I'm hoping I can get at least ONE of them done. Doesn't matter which.. just has to be one of them so I don't crumple up in a ball and decide to die.
I'm so fuckin melodramatic.
HNGs annoy me.
My feet are cold.
I smell like jasmine baby powder.
I need someone to crack my back.
And I have a Jeff Buckley song stuck in my head ..
in fact.. it's this one:
Lover, You Should've Come Over (J. Buckley)

looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners
parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water
and maybe I'm too young to keep good love from going wrong
but tonight you're on my mind so you never know

broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it
where are you tonight, child you know how much I need it
too young to hold on and too old to just break free and run

sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
and much too blind to see the damage he's done
sometimes a man must awake to find that really, he has no-one

so I'll wait for you... and I'll burn
will I ever see your sweet return
oh will I ever learn

oh lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late

lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in
burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him
my body turns and yearns for a sleep that won't ever come

it's never over, my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
it's never over, all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her
it's never over, all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
it's never over, she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever

well maybe I'm just too young
to keep good love from going wrong

oh... lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late

well I feel too young to hold on
and I'm much too old to break free and run
too deaf, dumb, and blind to see the damage I've done
sweet lover, you should've come over
oh, love well I'm waiting for you

lover, you should've come over
cause it's not too late

yeah.. I really dig that song.
sick of feeling like this really.
I don't wanna explain.
not even a lil.

brain music

I still have that song stuck in my head. inexplicably linked with 'big balls' by ACDC and the DA DA DA song by trio.
It has to be the music I got.
Mistah Lovah Lovah sent me 4 different burns with an incredible amount of music and software. All the dreamweaver stuff and all the cracks so maybe my pathetic lil non geek ass can finally put up a page that doesn't look like ass.
I warn you though, I may not be down with all the compatibility regulations.
I dunno. depends on what I decide to do with it.

I haven't gone out yet.
I'm really pathetic sometimes, you know.
When did I start hiding again?
I was never the life of the party but I was still the one that everyone made a point to chill with for awhile.
I want some leggos.
I need to mail some things.
I need to get my ass moving.
I need a hug.
But I have to finish this coffee first.
do I really want to open myself up to working third shift?
Austin Texas has the most men in the country (lil over 50% of the population) and is ranked the highest in number of 20-24 year old people.
I would think about moving there.
Except, well, it's Texas, fer chrissakes.

I'm utterly bored with myself.
someone make me interesting again?

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I absolutely love this music.
MLL absolutely rocks.
Who the hell else wold put ACDC, Madonna, Patsy Cline , Primus and Peter Paul and Mary on the same cd?
  • Current Music
    Patsy Cline - I Go Out Walking (After Midnig

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I was reading this again.

I've either had too much coffee or not enough.

I'm verra sad today.
in this general sort of way that just doesn't make much sense.
so it's all right.

What the hot holy FUCK

I hate hate hate hate software that insists that you must install it.
I hate it even more when that software just...forgets where things are..
such as the tcp/ip protocol.. and can't work around that.

that's especially bad when it's your isp's software.

and it's common enough of a problem for them to have it in their FAQ