July 7th, 2001

NewYorkNewYork

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As you can probably see from the last several entries, I really don't have much to say. But i'm just a freak.. I Have to keep talking.
At one point in time this was because there were people in the world out there who would have freaked out had I not kept it up. If I were to drop out for a day it would be noticed and worried over.
Now, that's not really the case.
It's just a force of habit now.
I have a strange relationship with attention. It always seems I get it when I don't want it and usually from the people that it's rather frightening or tedious to have it from. That isn't *always*... just seems to be the general way of things.
I'm tired of being in these dimensions only.
But I know flesh and blood lets me down just as much.


And it makes sense to *me* to say that... and I mean it for me.
So it makes sense.
and it's probably better like this... flat and vaporous.
::nods::
  • Current Mood
    restless restless
NewYorkNewYork

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I think I'll make cookies.
Some marbled cookies
And some orange and chocolate cookies.
maybe some lemmon poppy seed cookies too.
I feel like being domestic a lil. Baked goods have always been my forte. Baked goods and minimalistic cooking.
I need a flint for my pipe lighter. There is probably a pack of flint in the bag with all the zippos upstairs. You know they used to sell flints at the front of every register in every store around here? And now there's nothing. A lot of them don't even sell lighters at the checkouts. You can pick them up in their special designated cigarette area... and that's about it. Unless it's a convenience store or a lil shop attached to a gas station... Then you've got every sort of lighter you could think of, gailey displayed.
Raised awareness about the effects of nicotine severly reduced the availability of pyromaniacal tools.
It really is a damned shame.
I know that one of the packages I sent to the west coast made it out there (and I'm really ashamed that the only thing I could offer were stickers, a goofy and late birthday card (that might still be on its way) and gummy worms.. beh.. ) so I'm hoping the other one did too.
heh, probably won't know until say .. sixish..
he likes to sleep in, ya know.
So.
I have a skelebunnies comic sitting here with lil Devil Woobies all over it.
And I think I'm gonna have to scan some of them and make them lil icons becase they really are just too gaddamned cute.
More coffee more coffee more coffee.
I can't believe it's 2:30 already... what the hell happens to my days?
I guess I'll go get to those cookies. Wish I could play outkast while I bake. That would be pretty much awesome.
Hmm.. just realized I have to let butter soften first.
Guess I'll putz instead.
Guess I'll send this too.
Guess.. hehe.. I do that a lot..
  • Current Music
    07 - Leonard Cohen - Hey, That's no way to Say Goodbye
NewYorkNewYork

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Did you realize that this song was in improvisation? Did you know that he just got on a stage and made it up as he went.
And he did it well.


Leonard Cohen... slam singer..
::nods::
  • Current Music
    08 - Leonard Cohen - Please Don't pass me by
NewYorkNewYork

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me. Fucked up lil me.
I'm the adult all of a sudden.
The asshole has always been a complete psycho. Unreliable and unpredictable and mean.
Now all of a sudden, mom...
she's been reigning it in for a long long time.
I guess she can't do it anymore.
And now I'm the one keeping everyone calm.
Keeping everything running
Doing what needs to be done.
This reversal is bizarre.
But I know I can deal
and it's not really a suprise.. but... wow..
just slapped in the face with it tonight, ya know?


bleh bleh bleh
Battleship Earth is on.
It's pathetically bad.
Whaaaaaaaaat a shocker, hmmm?
I think I'll have one of the cookies I baked today (the asshole has already consumed more than a dozen so I better get one now... ) and talk to Mistah lovah lovah