December 10th, 2001


(no subject)

Don't ever come into a debate on the inherent fallacies of affirmative action when it's been sitting and simmering for a day.
50 long winded responses that I can't be bothered to read. But, quite frankly, if you come at it talking about the statistical differences in brain chemistries between races (and brush people off for not knowing enough about your particular field of sociological chemistry) you're already looking at in the most divisive and ultimately fucked way.
The idea that we're all *biologically* *inherently* different from one another is an idea that isn't new, we just keep on comiing up with better ways to justify it.
There was a time when we KNEW that blacks were inferior to whites.
We proved it by owning them.


"There are folks outwest doing something veeerry special with their animals"

"i am not a pretty girl
that is not what i do
i ain't no damsel in distress
and i don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear.....

and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally i agree with them
trouble is you gotta have yourself an alternate plan
and i have earned my disillusionment
i have been working all of my life
and i am a patriot
i have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if i knew that and i called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up"

"and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past"

"when i need to wipe my face
i use the back of my hand
and i like to take up space
just because i can
and i use my dress
to wipe up my drink
i care less and less
what people think
and you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kinda like our running joke
but it's really not funny........"

"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."

"Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts."

"I couldn't have believed, until now, that she could understand the things I can't say, without me having to even try. I couldn't imagine she could understand just how much a friend meant, even when that friend couldn't. I never pictured her as truly beautiful as she turned out to be.

But she is, and I can't even begin to make her understand how truly awe inspiring she is... the qualities she embodies... the personality she has tucked inside hidden from most people. That face... that overwhelmingly sweet face."

(no subject)

Totally exhausted. Totally freakin exhausted.
I don't know WHY...
Maybe it was dinner in public with my father.... it's always hard resisting the urge to launch myself across the table and just kill him, kill him, kill him... I'm always sure the waitstaff would applaud me for it.
And the added stress of it being the birthday. Just WAITING for him to tell one of them... at ANY MOMENT to tell one of them.
I find people standing around me singing at me in a restaurant to be horribly humiliating.

I've started reading LJs here and there. I've been doing it more often. Trying to be more objective, picking the ones with a lot of detail. Trying to see if I can play shrink. Someone is threatening SI
SOmeone else.... is threatening SI...
Yet ANOTHER person.. threatening SI...

when did this become so popular?
And why are they all cutters?
You can't convince me it's not.

No, I'm not saying everyone who is compelled toward SI is just trying to be cool.
I'm saying that there would be so many 16 year olds on LJ doing it (and in the exact same way) if it weren't somehow a hallmark of something. A trend.