August 28th, 2002


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It's pouring. It has been since 3:30 this morning.
Looking at the radar, there is a huge red blot right over my area.. in fact over most of my city, excluding the extreme southern portions. I was actually going to leave the house and do shopping things today.
Guess not.
Most of the major roads are flooded or flooding. Since I don't really *have* to go anywhere, I'm not.
We've been having a drought. Because of that, the ground is too dried to readily absorb the water. I've lived in Va Beach through the mandatory 5-6 water restrictions when we didn't have a water source and we were in legal poop with north carolina over the use of a resevoir that straddled the state line. So it's weird to me to get water at the table when I sit down in a restaurant. It's weird to see people watering their lawns or washing their cars.
The rain isn't being nice to my connection, though. (I've been given the gift of 45K and up connections this week for some reason) and though it *says* it's connected at a good rate, it's not really SHOWING me that, as I'm only downloading at 110.58 bps from the ftp. hehe.
And even then it's clogging.

I slept too long because it's just *so* easy to fall back asleep when it's pouring rain. Pity that I was alone. Dreams took care of some of that, and besides it would be goofy to try to fit another person on that cot... but I could do it, dammit.

I'm going to have a sun-dried tomato bagel, some coffee, then I'm going to finalize my little project (OoOoOoh mysterious), I think... I hope...

And I'm going to take something for the sinuses before my teeth start aching.

My cat has an adorable tiny pink bottom lip. And (comparably) huge, pointy teeth.

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Self righteous athiests annoy me just as much as misguided christians. Which, really... following scripture, A christian shouldn't be unequally yoked with a non-believer. So I guess it makes sense that I don't understand and am left upset by their behaviors.
The way they congregate and descend. The way they attack en masse or not at all. Both groups make me pretty sick becuase both groups fail to understand how putrid they're being. The athiests for just mocking without thinking and giving faith no validity; The christians for being so very very prideful, hateful, judgemental, and assuming that they must *know* the right way, simply because they made a choice to follow this religion.
Dave sent me links to a couple threads that he said were funny, entertaining. And I was just disgusted. I'm still baffled as to why he asked me if I thought the bible was fiction or not.... how does that even apply to this?
(and Dave has told me that it didn't... seperate thoughts that seemed to go together, but really didn't.)

Those stats are laughable, the sentiments on both sides make me sick, and I don't understand trolling christian communities just to get your jollies.

I'm not christian, and I'm not really agnostic either... I'm in this weird middle ground where I believe in some things that aren't explained by religion OR logic. So things like this just make me sad... because they assume that someone is right in the first place. And more and more I think that just no one is.

I'm mean

Maddening (3:39:46 PM): dude, you're still a jerk
Maddening (3:49:16 PM): I've decided you do the waiting to answer thing on purpose as a means of exerting your will-power and making yourself feel more in control.
Maddening (3:49:33 PM): either that or you're jerking off to gay male porn.
Mastethom (3:50:24 PM): actually its a means to doze off on the couch and not bother to go offline heh
Maddening (3:53:41 PM): dozing off after jerking off to gay male porn.... I know.

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This person took the contents of their journal from the How To Be Goth Online Handbook. Glen Danzig, Pinhead, and a gothy face I know but can't place for icons...

"would you attend my funeral" , listening to joy division, quoting 'goodbye cruel world' from pink floyd, quoting the "darkness" bits of Legend, praise of the Danzig show he went and saw... but special praise for "mother" (I've got a problem with the people who seem to glom onto that song the way they tend to. It was the song that got popular, so it's the one people know. Personally, if I'm going to listen to Danzig at all, and I probably won't, it'll be Black Aria. It's kind of goofy, but heartfelt) the name nephilim...
why not just call yourself azrael and be done with it? (there was a REASON they used that name for "Goth Talk" on SNL... even CHAD used to call himself azrael at one point in time...)

There was a point in time when if I were forced to identify myself as *anything*... it would have been goth. It wasn't really accurate, but it was close. Seeing a vague semblance of how I was (and I was never a moody little dork who talked about my own funeral ad nauseum or pretended depression was KoOL) slowly evolve into this *outrageous* parody... guh. I was 16 and I came by it honestly. There wasn't a phase to grow out of. I stopped wearing makeup becuse I got sick of wearing makeup. I started wearing jeans a lot more often than long black dresses because it was easier.
hehe.. I didn't grow out of it, I got lazy. That's my explanation.

But people like this dude (and there are tons of them on LJ , most of them under 21...), I think they want the mocking that they'll get becuse it just makes the whole tortured, dark, mysterious thing even more convincing for them.

They take nice moody shadow photos though.