February 6th, 2003


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ever have a random heart palpatation?
Just for a few seconds, you can't breath quite right... you can FEEL the offness of it in your chest... you feel groggy and weak.
I know they must not be healthy, and I don't get them often at all... this was the first in probably 6 months of so... But they always serve to freak me out A LOT.

They're just so quick though that it's easy to dismiss it as your imagination.
I dunno.

I'm exceedingly groggy this morning.

There has to be a less physcially exerting way to stretch.
And to blow my nose.

And to... be awake.

I've now gone in the opposite direction from my usual food thing. Instead of never eating, all I do now is eat.
I'm not gaining any weight. I eat something before work, again around 10, again around 1, again around 3, and then again around 7 or so. No, they aren't full meals or anything. It's a piece of fruit here, some crackers there... but I'm always eating.
And there's a part of my brain just screaming at me that NOOOO I have to stop.
But I won't. Becuase I just feel better.

My hands/wrists are still killing me muscle-wise from yesterday.
My skin isn't doing too hot either, given the slicing and general abuse.

Bah, whiney me.

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I dunno if it would be a compliment or an insult to hear someone say that something was "a Hollyism."
And would that be "a hollyism" or "an hollyism"?

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My CD just got *stuck* on an 808 state song. If it had been anyone else, I might not have realized so quickly that it was stuck. 808 state is never that repetative.

At work today, I was telling this guy that if he really doesn't know something, he should just say so instead of making something up, because making something up and being really wrong makes him look sort of brain dead when he does it *that* often. (he informed us all - 3 chicks, and two guys- that women ENJOY gynecological exams) Somewhere in there, I said the word "authoritative" and Steve gave me a big long "what the fuck, Holly, you went to green run.. what? did you get a word a day calendar or something?" REALLY fucking loud.
That was great.
Imply that I'm stupid WHILE implying that I'm trying to sound impressively intelligent.
Things like that shouldn't bug me. I know where my vocabulary comes from. I don't feel the need to go out of my way to use it, as many people do. If a word fits, I use it. But, at work, rarely is there a reason for me to say something is effluvial. heh. So I can kind of see where something polysyllabic being used around neandertal boy and his sidekick would tend to shock and confuse.

I kinda want to rant about the guy, but I won't. Suffice it to say that he's a dick.

Basically, don't assume that because I'm not bombarding you with every 25cent word I can scrape up that I'm somehow less intelligent than you. That annoys the piss out of me. On the other hand, reacting with shock and dismay that I even KNOW a word that would never appear in the Easy Reader series is a sure way to make me just treat you like a mongoloid from then on.

But aside from that, I'm having another period of 'hmmm.. maybe I'll just make more friends only posts'
Lots of reasons for that.

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I don't want to have Jack Dangers' children or anything. I don't want marriage, or ever lasting love...
I just want to give him an appreciative lick.
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