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I feel...

Odd. Disconnected. In general and specific.
I feel like I'm at the end of a string with a can attached hoping the line is taut enough to let my shakey voice find a way across.
I feel like my words aren't touching him. Not how it matters. He hears. He understands. he knows. But I don't think it's sinking in. It's not getting to those places where fear and doubt still reign supreme. It's not getting to the heart of things.
I don't know what to do.
Do I scream? seems wrong. Seems that screaming comes off as desperation. And I know *I* close up at screaming... seems he would probably react similarly.
What can I do to prove? show?
I know that a large part of this isn't me at all. It's the whole situation. It's HIS whole situation. It's all the worry. It's all the feelings of inadequacy. It's feeling trapped.
But me being me... I always think that I'm part of the problem as well.

Maybe things will straighten themselves out in person.
I just want him to never have to ask
I just want him to already know.

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dlbags
Dec. 1st, 2001 05:22 pm (UTC)
I don't know what to say except I'm here if you need me.
azmatiq
Dec. 1st, 2001 07:50 pm (UTC)
You say that a lot.
dlbags
Dec. 1st, 2001 09:03 pm (UTC)
Sorry, I don't give roadside therapy (beside, I don't think she want to hear that) like most of LJ, I just say I'm here to lean or an ear to listen to her. And I write run on sentences.
If that make me predictable, so be it.
azmatiq
Dec. 1st, 2001 09:12 pm (UTC)
Predictability isn't really the issue. I just see you trying so hard, and I think its adorable. That's all.

*musses your hair*
dlbags
Dec. 1st, 2001 09:14 pm (UTC)
I don't know what to say except I'm here if you need me.
azmatiq
Dec. 1st, 2001 10:06 pm (UTC)
haha.
azmatiq
Dec. 1st, 2001 09:05 pm (UTC)
I do know. I ask when I want to hear it.

As for straigtening the situation out... what's wrong?

What don't I seem to know? What am I missing?
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