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Dec. 10th, 2001

Totally exhausted. Totally freakin exhausted.
I don't know WHY...
Maybe it was dinner in public with my father.... it's always hard resisting the urge to launch myself across the table and just kill him, kill him, kill him... I'm always sure the waitstaff would applaud me for it.
And the added stress of it being the birthday. Just WAITING for him to tell one of them... at ANY MOMENT to tell one of them.
I find people standing around me singing at me in a restaurant to be horribly humiliating.

I've started reading LJs here and there. I've been doing it more often. Trying to be more objective, picking the ones with a lot of detail. Trying to see if I can play shrink. Someone is threatening SI
SOmeone else.... is threatening SI...
Yet ANOTHER person.. threatening SI...

when did this become so popular?
And why are they all cutters?
Trend?
You can't convince me it's not.

No, I'm not saying everyone who is compelled toward SI is just trying to be cool.
I'm saying that there would be so many 16 year olds on LJ doing it (and in the exact same way) if it weren't somehow a hallmark of something. A trend.

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dlbags
Dec. 10th, 2001 08:54 pm (UTC)
What the hell is SI?!? I really want to inderstand this post...
maddening
Dec. 10th, 2001 09:29 pm (UTC)
self injury.
it comes in all sorts of forms, but all the LJ kiddies are cutters.
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.
I've known people who burnt themselves, Just picked at their skin until it bled, bit themselves, scrubbed their skin with brillo... all sorts of things.
It's a coping mechanism that becomes a sort of problem in and of itself.
dlbags
Dec. 10th, 2001 09:31 pm (UTC)
I just masturbate...I guess I'm uncool.
maddening
Dec. 10th, 2001 10:09 pm (UTC)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAnd Dave got in his mandatory cock comment on my LJ.

Thanks.. thought you might miss a day...

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maddening
Dec. 11th, 2001 12:09 pm (UTC)
Oh I understand hun...
I've just been flummoxed by the sheer numbers of "cutters" on LJ.


subbes
Dec. 10th, 2001 08:55 pm (UTC)
About 10 years ago they would have been anorexics.

Now they're attention seeking by cutting. I'd prefer they use drugs, myself.
mjfgates
Dec. 10th, 2001 08:57 pm (UTC)
And ten years from now, they can combine the two and be self-liposuctionphilics.
blackmanxy
Dec. 10th, 2001 10:34 pm (UTC)
When I was about 2 or 3, I would smack my head repeatedly against the floor when I got frustrated. Does that count? : D
subliminalis
Dec. 11th, 2001 12:07 pm (UTC)
i still do.
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