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Why do I know and know of so many alcoholics?
Why don't more of them REALIZE that they're alcoholics?
It's not a disease, baby, it's a compulsion. You want an addiction, there's a buffet of delights to choose from .. I don't understand why *anyone* picks alcohol.
Personally, it makes me maudlin. Especially when I think I'll just fix my shitty mood with booze. Never works. And I've finally learned. Alcohol only destresses you and makes you feel good when you've had a life that probably doesn't stress you out *too* much.
Otherwise, for the rest of us (the NORMAL ones with FUCKED UP lives and massive amounts of baggage and issues) it just drags you further down.
Depressants? Depressants bring you down? Say it aint so!

Oh but it's true.

For me... drinking is what I do when I WANT to feel like shit and think too much and end up just curled up in a ball pretending I can't see the monsters.
Not that I don't have my drug abusing predilictions... but I can't understand the attraction to something like alcohol. E, I love (except for the crash. The crash can be nasty), Weed? EXCELLENT. Schedule 1 narcotics are pretty damned cool. Ultram and flexeri, vicodin, codeine, percoset, percodan...
My babies though... my love...
Always the speedies. The mellow speedies. I'm not a meth freak. Just look at a picture in which I'm smiling and you'll be able to tell that I'm not a tweaker. No rotting teeth, no horribly acned skin. But I really love the uppers.
A bowl with a lil crushed adderol.
Oooooh yeah .

But alcohol just depresses me and makes me puke.


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Dec. 16th, 2001 06:11 pm (UTC)
I'm pretty much the same way. I've gotten drunk exactly once; highlights included getting all soppy at a friend who *really* isn't set up to handle that, and throwing up all over the bed. Not hard to see why I haven't bothered to do it twice, is it?

But uppers-- oooooh. I just don't dare ever take those recreationally, not ever, they're just too perfect, too close to exactly what I want. I knew more than four people from school who ended up in the hospital from spending a quarter living on crystal meth instead of food, people way too much like me.

Oh, and Wife's prescription bottle says "Adderall." Funny-lookin' spelling, but there it is.
Dec. 16th, 2001 10:37 pm (UTC)
Hey, more for the rest of us.

Mark and I discovered yesterday that Woodchuck has a seasonal cider made from granny smith apples. Mmmm..
Dec. 16th, 2001 10:45 pm (UTC)
It's not seasonal.
They have it year round here if I'm thinking of the same one.
The one that I *like* that I can never find is the Colonial.

And you and Mark aren't compulsive drinkers.
Dec. 17th, 2001 11:58 am (UTC)
Hm. Could have sworn the box said "seasonal". *shrug*

And, true, we're not compulsive, but I figured that this thread needed a comment from someone who can at least drink without joining the curch of the porcelain god...
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