it keeps happening.
I keep letting him hurt me.
and he's too much of a 'typical stupid man' to realize that he keeps hurting me.
I don't think he ever really understood the actual depth of my feelings about him.
And now.... well.... now is not the time to tell him.
SO I guess he'll just never know.
And I guess that's okay.
Well, it WOULD be okay anyway.
If it weren't so incredibly NOT okay.