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I'm going through every piece of paper I own.
I have a lot of paper.

I found, in my filing cabinet, a file where I'd kept EVERYTHING having anything to do with me and jason.
The plastic bag from the HoJo we stayed in on Valentines day. Cards. Letters. Ticket stubs. Reciepts from restaurants.
ANd of course the really nasty abusive letters too.
Along with the good letters.
Where he, after knowing me for 3 months, claimed never dying love.

The phrase "I love you more than anything, now I just need to make you love me too," is very telling.
VERY telling.

I've been trying to call Chad for awhile now... nothing but non stop weirdness.
He was supposedly online when I got online, but shortly thereafter went away. Given his connection issues, that's not really suprising.
But his line is giving me strange "no service" messages and his father's line is feeding me fax noise.
GRAR.

Really wanted to talk to my sweets while I sift through this pile of paper bullshit in my room.

s'okay.
I'm patient.



sometimes.

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xxandrielxx
Jan. 21st, 2002 04:37 pm (UTC)
What's the point in keeping stuff like that after the relationship is over?

I have similar things from boys that loved me but I didn't love them. I keep them, and I'm not quite sure why.
maddening
Jan. 21st, 2002 04:57 pm (UTC)
For me it was just becuase it was buried and I didn't care enough about it to go out of my way to get rid of it.

And there *are* good memories associated with some of these things... just not so stunningly good that I feel the need to keep them around.

I also tend to keep the bad things as REMINDERS.
Big "DON'T"s.
subliminalis
Jan. 21st, 2002 06:25 pm (UTC)
The phrase "I love you more than anything, now I just need to make you love me too," is very telling.
VERY telling.


that's sick.




i threw away all my stuff from past relationships. every time i saw the box of stuff, i literly felt sick. i couldnt get over her and every time i saw the box, it's like seeing something i could never have.

are you into tool? you'd really appriciate a song they did called The Patient right about now.

josh
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