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Jan. 26th, 2002

so the film advance on the camera doesn't work.
that's a fucking important bit to know about a camera...
so I just paid $100 (that I couldn't afford) for a camera (that I really wanted) that doesn't work.

And sean tried to kill himself and is in a coma and I'm catching snide "I suppose you don't want to see him" comments from Mike and I keep remembering the stitches on the arms of that guy in royal tennebaums.

Sean traces his veins.
He took his time.
He really wanted to die.

didn't bother filling the tub with water.
Didn't bother taking off his clothes.
He just didn't want to make a big mess.
Just sat quietly and tried to bleed to death.

And now he's in a coma
Which is good.
Becuase the other prognosis would be brain death.
And time will only tell wether or not he's going to wake up ... and going to be him when he does.
and he'll be in full blown, unmedicated state when he does wake up.
So it'll be hard to tell until they pump him with anti-psychotics wether or not he's got massive brain damage.

and then that dream with Jason's bloated corpse.
I couldn't wake up from it.
My brain is doing me a disservice.
my brain is cruel.

so many things just seem to bubble in all at once.
and fuck anyone who's going to tell me to be optimistic or look on the bright side or give me some god/spirit/fate bullshit.
keep it to yourself.

I'm in a foul mood.
It's really hard not to just breakdown crying constantly.
I'm trying.
I really am trying.

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luvrhino
Jan. 26th, 2002 08:49 pm (UTC)
rhino soup for the soul
It sounds like it would help if you could channel all your negative feelings to an appropriate external entity. Thus, i recommend you find a way to get to New Jersey, hunt down Danny Frost, bitchslap him, then immediately turn around and go home.

It will make you feel better. It will make me feel better. It will make the world a better place. This needs to happen.
::nods::
frobisher
Jan. 26th, 2002 11:49 pm (UTC)
Re: rhino soup for the soul
More importantly, if you do that, you'll be right near nyc, so you could come here and I could give you a big hug.
mjfgates
Jan. 27th, 2002 01:44 am (UTC)
Re: rhino soup for the soul
You're an ass, Ken.
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