if it weren't clear before, it is certainly clear now... I am an addict.
And my dad is still gone. Which is interesting, though not particularly stressful or anything.
Specially considering he just walked in the door..
had to open my gaddamn mouth....
He doesn't seem drunk.
Maybe he WAS drunk and is tired now.
Funny... my father being drunk was never a factor in anything as a kid. He was dangerous enough sober.
And now... it's almost a good thing. It makes him tired.
Except, it makes me more tense.. because I can't predict him.