I'm not going to keep sitting around thinking about things because I just keep crying and that's just not helping me out at all, especially with my eyes already this messed up.
My whole face just hurts. My back, my neck. My head.
The period is kicking my ass so I'm exhausted and listless anyway.
I need to buy film.
Which means going out in public.
Which is just about the last thing I want to do right now.
I don't want to rant or give the full story or any of that. I don't want to and I don't need to. And I'm pretty sure I won't.
"Conflicted" doesn't really cover the way I feel... but it's close.
So I'm going to do something I usually don't do at all.
I'm going to take care of myself.