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Apr. 14th, 2002

I'm exhausted.
I had an incredible amount of fun.
An *incredible* amount of fun.
akadashi is a complete ball of goodness for letting us stay at his place and entertaining us and putting up with our indecisiveness. Truth be told, he's the whole reason it was fun.
I had the best wine I've ever tasted, some incredible food, lots of silliness, lots of culturey goodness, and the most wonderfully comfortable place to sleep at the end of the night.
I took tons of pictures, most of which still need to be developed, but the digital ones I took at the Hirshorn (I think I misspelled that) are *very* very cool... I kind of impressed myself.

I found me again this weekend.
And I rediscovered why I enjoyed going to DC in the first place and why I ever considered moving up there with Jason (even if he hated the idea of living in the city proper, which I would have loved...), despite being very ready to get out of the relationship.

I'm still conflicted about a lot of things.
I'm not really ready to talk about any of it because I'm changing my mind every five minutes. I've spent way too much of my life worrying about other people and not enough time on myself. I'm 24 and unfulfilled and I just don't think I can keep letting what I need get squashed by what I think I should do.

As soon as it's feasible... I wanna go back. With more batteries and more film.

I need a sustainable job. I need a car. I need to go grab me a life.
And I mean to do all those things as soon as possible.


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Apr. 14th, 2002 09:21 pm (UTC)
I don't know if commenting is wrong. I hope not.

I love you. I always have.

I gave you some wrong impressions, and I know how I did that now... and I'm sorry.

You said, earlier, that it was good that I called. If I hadn't it would have made things worse.

I would love to talk to you, like we both said we wanted to try and do. I'm not all emotional. Just... like we're supposed to. Talk. Not about us... not about decisions... just... about anything.

If you want... just know I'll be 'cool'
Apr. 14th, 2002 10:10 pm (UTC)
When you find a place that has one of those "life" things available, get me the address. The local shops are always out. Damn them.
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