That's alright. I'm good at that.
My mother brought me home some veggie rolls so I'm taking a lil break and having FOOD.
I was going throught a lil book I have and writing in numbers, trying to organize some stuff that I actually need to hold on to while I trash everything else and I realized that there are only a few people who've made it through more than two of my "need to rewrite the phone numbers" things (I do this fairly often).
I tend to befriend people who are pretty damned broken. They don't stick around long.
At the same time, I have a tendency to go through cycles of pulling away from people and there are only so many of those you can go through and keep the friends. hehe.. It's kind of difficult to go hang with people you just haven't talked to in 6 months... for no reason other than you just didn't talk to them.
But I noticed that somewhere along the way I got rid of Jason's contact info. I was pretty sure it was out of date as hell anyway. I doubt he stayed living in that house when the owners were going through a divorce and he was unemployed.
But the other reason was becuase every time I'd flip open the lil book to look for a phone number I'd end up seeing his adress and wondering if he was dead or not.
There were so many things with him I should have handled so much better.
I wanted to be nice so much that I forgot that I should be *honest* first.
I can't fix that now...but the lesson is a good one.