A Non-Newtonian Fluid (maddening) wrote,
A Non-Newtonian Fluid

random and scattered

I'm actually considering going to sleep.
Well, I'm drinking coffee... but really.. I'm considering going to sleep.

I think I'm going to do a dlbags here.

On this day last year....

Okay.. well.. that was horribly depressing....

That was just a couple days before that whole thing with Sean.
Has that really been a year? That's really been a year. Man.

I like the way I used to write. So disjointed and flowing.
I can't manage that much anymore. My brain chemistry changed somewhere along the way and it's hard now to not make fuller sentences. (Fuller brush man. hehe... RANDOM!)
I think I maybe just drink less coffee and get more sleep.
When I get a good insomnia streak back on I'll get back to my old obtuse ways.

There is a story about a kid in the paper who'd graduating from high school with a 5.0 gpa.
He's taking an AP advanced chemistry class.. ::nods::
He's the first kid in the history of the school system to have a 5.0.
When I read things like that, I think for a bit that I should have really applied myself in school, gone through the AP crap, taken the stupid SATs and gone to college when I should have.
Instead I just did a lot of acid and did throw away "B" work.
I'm getting old.
I'm regretting high school because I didn't study hard enough.
I'm also getting to that point in my life when I think about relationships in the "is there any chance I would ever marry this person and have kids with them?" way instead of just the "do they make me all giggly?" way.

I scare me.

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