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Jun. 24th, 2002

Bored Bored Bored.
Very Bored.
Dan was here until an OBNOXIOUS hour last night. He watched tv while I was online He tried to work out that knot in between my shoulderblades from my stresses. When that didn't work, he sat on the floor in the bathroom and talked to me from the other side of the shower curtain while I took a really really long, really hot bath. And he let himself out and locked the door after him so I didn't have to go downstairs with him and end up freezing to death. I think he still feels guilty about being a shit over COOKIES the other day.

But I really needed the niceness last night.
I'm still feeling like a really needy person in general.. and it's still annoying me. I really really don't like feeling like this.
My life is just pretty damned empty at the moment.
And ya know... I know what I want. I know exactly what I want. I just don't know if I've got the patience to work toward something that may very well never ever ever ever happen. Heh.. Cheery this evening, no?
I've just got a lot on my mind. A lot that I can't talk about. Weird things that bubble up at the wrong time (always at the wrong time) and I can't bring myself to inconvenience anyone or let myself feel that fragile.
So I haven't been. And I probably won't... not anytime soon anyway.

I need to force myself out of my stupor.
I need to get a shitty little job that I'll hate. I need a reason besides "it's almost noon" to be out of bed.
And then maybe, hopefully, some of these things that are killing me will begin to resolve.
hopefully.

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luvrhino
Jun. 24th, 2002 05:17 am (UTC)
I bring meaning to your life, i'm your inspiration...
Yes, but remember that the shitty little job will allow you to get out from under the same roof as your shitty little father. Then you can fulfill your dream of moving to Houston to keep me perpetually entertained. ::nods::
maddening
Jun. 24th, 2002 07:06 am (UTC)
Re: I bring meaning to your life, i'm your inspiration...
... This is news to me.

Dammit... you people are supposed to keep me aprised of my running list of moving destinations.

Why not make Chuck entertain you? He's at least in the same state and he shaved off the shin-squirrel...
luvrhino
Jun. 24th, 2002 07:31 am (UTC)
Re: I bring meaning to your life, i'm your inspiration...
I thought you knew that your most burning desire in life was to move to Houston to keep me perpetually entertained.

Unlike you, Chuck can't keep me perpetually entertained because he asks too many questions and i'd continuously want to bitchslap him. Sadly, i'm not in good enough shape to bitchslap him 24/7. Maybe if i hired helper monkeys to bitchslap Chuck when i got tired...
maddening
Jun. 24th, 2002 11:47 am (UTC)
Re: I bring meaning to your life, i'm your inspiration...
I think he questioned you more than he questioned the people in DC.
I think you put him too at ease. Maybe he just questions you a lot if he feels more comfortable around you.
You should be more menacing.

but the monkies thing is a good idea too.

I don't think I'm capable of perpetual entertainment. Isn't that one of those things that science is still trying to puzzle out the answers to? Like Perpetual motion and cold fusion?

luvrhino
Jun. 24th, 2002 06:01 pm (UTC)
Happy Mary's Birthday-Day
I don't think I'm capable of perpetual entertainment.

Sure you are. Whenever you get tired, all you need to do is hang upside-down and freak me out with your scary eyes. Your icon has given me countless hours of entertainment.

I'm not sure i'm even capable of handling the entertainment involved with seeing an inverted Vert in person. ::nods::
maddening
Jun. 24th, 2002 08:39 pm (UTC)
We should all send her underpants.
You should have come up to DC.
You could have seen me annoyed, overheated, drunk, hungover, groggy, silly, annoyed, groggy, goofy, sleepy, annoyed... a whole *range* of Holly states.

Whereas when I was in texas I was pretty much just... *there* .. for the most part.
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