A Non-Newtonian Fluid (maddening) wrote,
A Non-Newtonian Fluid

Sooooo I haven't been sleeping.
I've been going to sleep, I've been enjoying it a LOT (I adore sleeping), I want to sleep all the time, but I've been having lots of weird interesting dreams that keep my brain too awake.
Not really nightmares, in that they don't really ... give me that hardcore fear thing.
But not really just normal dreams in that the things in them are plenty disturbing enough to make me have to get up, walk around the house, make sure everything is locked and where it's supposed to me. This morning about 8 in the morning (I fell asleep around 5) I stood in the garage in the dark, just SURE that something had been moved.

I don't usually have anxiety dreams. And these last two weeks have been nothing but. And lots of Tom. And lots of violence.
heh.. This is what I get for loving B horror, isn't it?

So I'm tired all the time. I'm starting to really *feel* the sleep dep. And it's making me pretty damned loopy. hehe.. I'm not cranky or in a bad mood at all. That's the thing. I'm really doing alright. The things that have been on my mind are still on my mind... but they aren't as pushed to the front as they were. Does that make sense? Heh... things don't feel so *dire*.. nothing is an emergency. Because, that's how it's felt lately. So I'm really doing better, in a way.
And I just generally *feel* better for the most part.
I just can't sleep.

  • Oh LJ...

    While I rarely have the energy or mental clarity for a fully fleshed out blah blah in the livejournal, I almost always have the energy for picspam…

  • Yep, still feeling old

    Well alright, Semagic has changed more than a little since the last time I used it. Heh. This is pretty ridiculous. Because Tamara has chosen to…

  • (no subject)

    I think I need to remember to keep the LJ open in the background. Download another client for it and actually run the thing. Maybe that will increase…

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic