Tom loved that movie, but I never got to see it because we could never find it.
I saw it the other night and I understand why he loved it. Not because it's wonderful.. not because it has some standout art about it like some of the impressionist black and white stuff he liked. It's not really extraordinary in any way... not really.
There are a lot of peculiar long shots, the lighting is really well done and the story isn't the same old thing, so I was suprised by its inventiveness...
But really... it's just another 'euroshock' movie.
Though, at the same time... there's just something about it. There's something about it that I don't think I could explain that makes it wonderful. I've taken off a lot of the blinders regarding Tom. I'm finally out that other side of things where I don't grieve him all the time in some small way. So seeing this movie now instead of awhile back was a lot better for me.. hehe..
And it let me miss him without falling apart over it.
I watched fight club with the screenwriter and chuck palanhiuk commentary on last night. Pretty damned interesting, I think.
It's so weird to hear his voice. He sounds just like what I expected him to... without ever realizing I had an expectation. And it's neat to see what his favorite lines are.
I got up to "Tyler's not here, Tyler's gone, Tyler went away" before I had to sleep.
Tonight I'm sure I'll be up again way too late as I don't have to work until late in the day. And then I have to open the next day... so yeah, I might as well fuck up the sleep schedule a lot while I can, ya know? hehe.
I'm going to be exhausted anyway... I might as well just do what I want to do.