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My CD just got *stuck* on an 808 state song. If it had been anyone else, I might not have realized so quickly that it was stuck. 808 state is never that repetative.

At work today, I was telling this guy that if he really doesn't know something, he should just say so instead of making something up, because making something up and being really wrong makes him look sort of brain dead when he does it *that* often. (he informed us all - 3 chicks, and two guys- that women ENJOY gynecological exams) Somewhere in there, I said the word "authoritative" and Steve gave me a big long "what the fuck, Holly, you went to green run.. what? did you get a word a day calendar or something?" REALLY fucking loud.
That was great.
Imply that I'm stupid WHILE implying that I'm trying to sound impressively intelligent.
Things like that shouldn't bug me. I know where my vocabulary comes from. I don't feel the need to go out of my way to use it, as many people do. If a word fits, I use it. But, at work, rarely is there a reason for me to say something is effluvial. heh. So I can kind of see where something polysyllabic being used around neandertal boy and his sidekick would tend to shock and confuse.

I kinda want to rant about the guy, but I won't. Suffice it to say that he's a dick.

Basically, don't assume that because I'm not bombarding you with every 25cent word I can scrape up that I'm somehow less intelligent than you. That annoys the piss out of me. On the other hand, reacting with shock and dismay that I even KNOW a word that would never appear in the Easy Reader series is a sure way to make me just treat you like a mongoloid from then on.

But aside from that, I'm having another period of 'hmmm.. maybe I'll just make more friends only posts'
Lots of reasons for that.


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Feb. 6th, 2003 06:02 pm (UTC)
please, don't go all friends-only. I generally don't log on except by accident.
Feb. 6th, 2003 06:57 pm (UTC)
I won't. Becuase I usually can't remember to actually *make* the entries friends only in the first place.
Plus, I dunno... sort of defeats the purpose in some ways.

I just meant that that's a good indicator of my general feelings right at the moment. A little more withdrawn, in a way. Which is odd, considering I seem to be getting more and more upfront and blunt every single day.

Basically, I'm not feeling very comfortable with the idea of a bunch of eyes on this space where I put a lot of things that are *really* personal. But I haven't been very candid lately. In fact, just the opposite. I've been treating this space much the same way I treat a coworker.

I don't know if my feelings toward the whole process have changed, or it's just that I feel so much more conversationally oriented in the last few weeks. I want to talk TO the people I dig, not at them. I feel like I'm transmitting from Mars, really.

ramble ramble.
My body is exhausted all the time, but my mind is racing constantly. So uh.. that's why you get replies like this instead of a simple "yeah, I won't do that."

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