A Non-Newtonian Fluid (maddening) wrote,
A Non-Newtonian Fluid
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it always suprises me when I get a cold. I can feel it happening for weeks, but on the first day that I can't breathe because of just how infected and sore my sinuses are, I'm numb with shock.

This morning I'm having cereal, carnation instant breakfast and coffee.
Becuase yesterday I was a zombie by 11am. I also need to pick up drugs more effective than advil cold and sinus. It just isn't doing the job.

Today I am helping with another backroom scan for electronics. (scan everything. Some things will be sent back to the distribution center because we got too many. Other things will be sent back to the manufacturer because we're no longer carrying them)

Hopefully it won't take long and I can put a decent dent in what I have left to do for the week, as I don't want week old revisions staring me in the face on monday.

I miss playing ruthless games of monopoly with my brothers and sister when I was very young. Chris would just make up new rules as we went along and I'm pretty sure that when Wendy and Stephen were 'helping me' with my money, they were ripping me off.
S'okay. I didn't really get the whole thing anyway.

Got into a conversation yesterday about my cynicism and how I don't expect anything from the world.
It's impossible to explain my 'humans will dissapoint me' standpoint to someone who's so incredibly positive that they can actually say things like "I will try to make the world a better place" and mean them.
I understand that from an outside view, my cynicism and snap judgement attitude seem calculating and mean and unfair.
::shrug:: I don't care.
And I know that my usual response of "either you get it or you don't" is really unsatisfying for those who either really want to understand or really want to seem like they do.
Again, I don't care.
If you know me, you know that I'm not a bitch. That I give people chances. That I'm a nice person who's open to niceness.
But if we're talking about the population in general and what I expect of them... yeah... I think most of them are just walking talking reasons not to breed.

I dunno... I have to go to work now. I'll have to see if I can find a way to make this all more coherent somehow.
People still won't understand it (well, the people who's real goal isn't understanding but *changing* won't get it) but I'll feel a little better about having made at least the mental effort.
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