?

Log in

No account? Create an account

Previous Entry | Next Entry

Jun. 16th, 2003

It's bizarre the things I've found satisfaction in.
Domestic things. Things that I typically can't stand doing, I'm so pleased with myself over accomplishing.

And the things you think it would be easy to do.. I just can't manage.

I can do laundry all day, get everything folded and hung and tidy and organized, but I can't manage to make myself just flip through the channels on tv.

herm.

Karl went to bed a few hours ago. Came right in the door from work (and he'd left early) got home, changed, we talked for about 15 minutes and he was asleep before 6:30.
Pretty damned amazing what you'll find yourself doing for a job.

So I finished up the laundry I'd been doing and I played some diablo II. I've switched over to the probably less exciting game of Spider Solitaire.

I don't know if I'm bored or... what.
I'm not discontent about it, whatever this mood is.
I feel good about my day, about my living situation, about my partner, about my life in general at the moment and the track it's on. It's a good thing, all around. And it's an even better thing knowing that it's good for both of us.
Nothing is perfect. But I never asked for things to be perfect.
I suprise myself on a daily basis with how much I've changed in the last year, the last 6 months, hell.. in the last 6 weeks. I'm not a different me, I'm a better me.
That's not self delusional, butterflies and daisy fields bullshit talking.
It's just true.
I'm happy. It's a completely unatural state for me and I *love* it.

I know I have my ill-wishers, who want things in my life (specifically this move)turn out badly for one reason or another.
It just isn't going to happen they way you wish it would.

Comments

( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
(Anonymous)
Jun. 17th, 2003 06:19 pm (UTC)
Fuck the ill-wishers. Fuck them right in the ass.
(Anonymous)
Jun. 18th, 2003 07:05 pm (UTC)
get over yourself.
I know I have my ill-wishers, who want things in my life (specifically this move)turn out badly for one reason or another.

you once wrote there's a difference between being "jaded by what the world is, and what the world isn't", but when you say things like that, perhaps you are the prior?
maddening
Jun. 18th, 2003 07:34 pm (UTC)
Re: get over yourself.
It's cute that you think I'm talking about you.

(Anonymous)
Jun. 18th, 2003 09:10 pm (UTC)
It's even cuter that you think that I do...

I'd say more but your duplicitous nature renders anything I say guilt or an attack. A marvelous defense mechanism I might add.
( 4 comments — Leave a comment )

Profile

NewYorkNewYork
maddening
A Non-Newtonian Fluid

Latest Month

March 2010
S M T W T F S
 123456
78910111213
14151617181920
21222324252627
28293031   

Page Summary

Powered by LiveJournal.com
Designed by Tiffany Chow