There are, of course, things I haven't done. Plenty of, in fact. I'm not talking about events though. I'm talking about basic human interaction. When things happen, I can't feel shocked and dismayed. Only a dull sense of "I should have known that was coming," and "I knew better." Everything just proves what I already knew but didn't.
And things have happened. And I don't feel shock and dismay. And I do feel that I should have seen it coming and that I should have known better.
Trust is always a sticky issue, especially when you've had to teach yourself how to do it. Moreso when you're repeatedly handed reasons to never do it. Conditioning works in the strangest ways.
