Nevermind that I've sent him links to it over and over.
I guess he never actually looked?
He just read the one day though... I wonder if he's figured out to go back to the main page and read. I wonder how I feel about this.
I wonder if I shouldn't run around and make a lot of entries friends only.
I won't do that though.
I said it.
I felt it.
He can deal.
I'm calming down I think.
Gaddamn but I can get pissed off something fierce, ya know?
I want to cut my hair.
but I want it to still be long.
I'm all fucked up. ALways have been. Always will be. It's why some people get so attached. And it's also why some other people run away as fast as they fucking can.
that's the problem with being unpredictable.
you can't predict what might happen.
I'm still unspeakably sad.
and I'm still okay with it.