I got the screwed up lil aura thing today. I had the headache for a bit. But I had already dosed up.
I'm all just sort of generally annoyed. I know I still have all these things on my mind.. but I'm feeling less and less like putting them here. Because, well, I'm feeling less and less like any of the people who read this thing get an ounce of what I'm saying. And I need the understanding right now.
I think I'm going to have to start using that other journal for awhile.
Just so I can type it all... purge through the fingertips...
And not have to worry about all of you guys reading and judging and commenting.
Yes, I know, I could just make them private, turn off the comments...
But that's not me.
And maybe I'll get over this soon and feel good and right with the world.
But really what I want to do right at this very moment is cleave that friends list pretty much in half and discard the chunk that I know is just there on a whim and not because they actually dig or enjoy anything I have to say... the ones who have to pop up and play naysay.
Some of you for some reason I'm cool with.
most of you I'm just not.
No, I'm not going to list you all.
and no, I'm not going to do any culling tonight.
but soon, probably.
I can't use this as a forum for dumping my brain when I can FEEL the eyes.